Months after our sweet girl passed away, a friend told me that God would redeem dates from loss. That those hard days would somehow become a sweet day. Dates never held much for me so I didn't think much of it for a while...
Today I'm truly reminded how He has done this for me. October 15th is not only the day we brought our James Royal home from the hospital but also it is Infant and Pregnancy loss awareness day. 1 in every 4 women have been marked by loss. I never thought this would happen to us and our home will never be complete without Naomi.
We dealt with secondary infertility for 18 months afterward and had begun to believe God had other plans. We filled our house with precious foster kids and were so thankful to get to love on them.
I woke up on Naomi's birthday and was content with where God was placing our family. He had stretched my faith and trust and I knew he'd make our life beautiful. I was scared to hope since i had staken dozens of pregnancy tests and all were negative. He really surprised us though when we saw the little white stick show "pregnant". In shock and awe, on February 7th 2016, we found out about God's next step in our life... a little boy named James Royal who truly seemed sent from his sister in Heaven above. I could almost see her whispering to Jesus- "hey- let's send him now!".
October 15th and February 7th will always be a reminder of our Naomi and how much we will miss her. But 1 Corinthians 15:15 says it well.
"Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?" God has added a level of sweetness to these days and reminded me that even through it all seemed hard he truly loves me.